Monday, October 30, 2006
ok so i havent been posting in some time..well today got inter-class tourny..i took part in basketball :P we won all the matches except the last one,tie..but knn guess what?instead of a tie breaker they took who had the more number of points in the previous matches to decide who gets first and our total score was behind them by 4,so we got runner up..well anyway we got into semi-finals,get to play again and the best things is that its 30 mins =] well..pretty down and bored right now so i guess i will just write that paragraph thingy again..
we've been together for a few months now
but i guess all good things has to end;
it all started when you seemed to be avoiding me;
i asked you if you were
but you denied it openly
and asked me why i was asking weird questions these days
i told you that i had this strong feeling that
you didnt feel the same for me anymore
and you told me that i should stop thinking like that
before you really avoid me;
i trusted you but after a while
you acted like you were avoiding me again;
whenever i asked you out,
you said you werent free
when i called you,
you said you were busy and would call me back later
but you never did
when i messaged you,
you didnt reply at all
i tried to tell myself that i was just thinking too much
it failed terribly cause
it was too fucking obvious that your avoiding me
i went against my heart
and initiated the break up
your face was filled with false sadness
while mine was filled with the real thing
i thought i would be okay after a while
but for some reason,
i felt lost without you
i didnt know what to do next
its as if i had lost an important meaning in life
its been weeks now
but your face still appears in my dreams
and till today,
i still think,
whether you really ever liked me
or if i was just some temporary toy
you play around with and leave
when you get bored of it
we've been together for a few months now
but i guess all good things has to end;
it all started when you seemed to be avoiding me;
i asked you if you were
but you denied it openly
and asked me why i was asking weird questions these days
i told you that i had this strong feeling that
you didnt feel the same for me anymore
and you told me that i should stop thinking like that
before you really avoid me;
i trusted you but after a while
you acted like you were avoiding me again;
whenever i asked you out,
you said you werent free
when i called you,
you said you were busy and would call me back later
but you never did
when i messaged you,
you didnt reply at all
i tried to tell myself that i was just thinking too much
it failed terribly cause
it was too fucking obvious that your avoiding me
i went against my heart
and initiated the break up
your face was filled with false sadness
while mine was filled with the real thing
i thought i would be okay after a while
but for some reason,
i felt lost without you
i didnt know what to do next
its as if i had lost an important meaning in life
its been weeks now
but your face still appears in my dreams
and till today,
i still think,
whether you really ever liked me
or if i was just some temporary toy
you play around with and leave
when you get bored of it
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
hey all,sorry for not posting,was and STILL sick with high fever and throat infection..sucks big time,i cant swallow even porridge -.- well i guess i will wrap up the previous days..i will start from friday,we went to acs (i) for some talk..when we reached there,we were all like OMG! its so damn big..its like 4 times bigger than our school? so yeah we went in the performing arts theater and the one of the prefects who gave us the talk said that the theater was the 2nd biggest in singapore with over a thousand seats....wow! then later they brought us down to look at the facilities in the school..we first went to the labaratory,then to the canteen and finally to the cyberAC(computer gaming room)! but could only play for 1 game -.- well at least i owned everybody =] then we went back to the auditorium and they dismissed us back to school..well after that i fell real sick,slept as soon as i reached home but i was still sick..so i saw a doctor,for the next 2 days,the pain was still there so my mum brought me to the hospital,the doc there said i didnt have to be warded and just gave me some medicine...well i hope i recover soon and have a safe & fun trip to japan mark!
Thursday, October 19, 2006
pretty late at night now,cant really get to sleep,really sad for some personal reason,everything in life's so messed,so many fucking problems...just hoping i can make things right this time..well enough about that..just came back from chalet yesterday and i slept till 12 noon today! cause at the chalet,we slept at 4 and woke up at 6 for 2 nights!at the chalet we had pretty much of fun,cause there was an arcade really near the chalet =] well yeah..and then this morning, i on-ed my phone and saw marcus asking me where i am now and then in my head i was like "omfg today is his birthday and i am supposed to go to plaza" totally forgot all bout it =/ then i went to plaza..reached there 5 minutes late(pretty early =] but i was still the latest to reach -.-) then we played some arcade(nobody wanted to challenge me initial d -.-) before watching death note which i have been looking forward to but omg the ending was totally crappy,but its still a good show overall...after that we went to another arcade at the mrt station and we just played there till 7.30 then i went home..and sorry to cus and the rest cause i didnt talk a lot or whatever cause i was damn tired and my mind was on something else =/ well i dont usually do this but i am just gonna write it out,and to those people who know me,IT DOES NOT REFER TO ANYBODY OK??well but some parts are really my feelings right now..
i am sorry;
for all the things i didnt do for you
i thank you;
for all the things you did for me
i dont want this to end yet
but i am not too sure about you
when you told me you like me
i was filled with joy
but i did not dare tell you
what you told me
because i thought we were pretty different
and that i wasnt good enough for you
i even made you angry
by neglecting you and things to make you hurt
but please believe me,i did not do it on purpose
i just got carried away
and after a while,
i realised you were slowly fading away from me
but you told me that you'd always stay by my side
i was really touched
i didnt expect you to love me this much
but yet i still couldnt tell you how much i like you
i started talking to a girl a lot lately
someone you really hate
you got real sad,
but you didnt tell me about it
slowly,you didnt seem to be interested in talking to me
i thought you had someone else already
so i asked you;
you said you still like me
but i didnt believe you
and i was pretty rude to you
after that,
you didnt reply me any more;
i didnt know whether you were sad or angry,
i didnt even know whether if you were even
speaking through your heart
but all i knew is that
i was really sad & angry at myself
for not telling you sooner;
i then
tried to contain my sadness & anger by punching those hard walls
till my hands bled
but it didnt work
and soon,we lost communication.
its been months now,
but i still regret what i didnt do
and your face still appears in my dreams on the nights
which i could fall asleep
and if i could meet you right now,
i just want to say 3 words,
"i love you".
i am sorry;
for all the things i didnt do for you
i thank you;
for all the things you did for me
i dont want this to end yet
but i am not too sure about you
when you told me you like me
i was filled with joy
but i did not dare tell you
what you told me
because i thought we were pretty different
and that i wasnt good enough for you
i even made you angry
by neglecting you and things to make you hurt
but please believe me,i did not do it on purpose
i just got carried away
and after a while,
i realised you were slowly fading away from me
but you told me that you'd always stay by my side
i was really touched
i didnt expect you to love me this much
but yet i still couldnt tell you how much i like you
i started talking to a girl a lot lately
someone you really hate
you got real sad,
but you didnt tell me about it
slowly,you didnt seem to be interested in talking to me
i thought you had someone else already
so i asked you;
you said you still like me
but i didnt believe you
and i was pretty rude to you
after that,
you didnt reply me any more;
i didnt know whether you were sad or angry,
i didnt even know whether if you were even
speaking through your heart
but all i knew is that
i was really sad & angry at myself
for not telling you sooner;
i then
tried to contain my sadness & anger by punching those hard walls
till my hands bled
but it didnt work
and soon,we lost communication.
its been months now,
but i still regret what i didnt do
and your face still appears in my dreams on the nights
which i could fall asleep
and if i could meet you right now,
i just want to say 3 words,
"i love you".
Sunday, October 15, 2006
wow its pretty early in the morning..couldnt really sleep cause i was too excited bout the chalet(almost got cancelled) so yeah..gonna pack soon then maybe go to thiong to buy earpieces for my ipod cause the old ones spoilt -.- , and this few days after the exam i have been sleeping like 12 - 2 +,cant really sleep =/..thats all i have to say for now,will try to post again later =]
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Wow..havent been blogging in a while...its pretty late now but i guess i will try to give a long post this time so be happy sally :P well lets start from the start..my major exams are over...yeah thats pretty cool now i can go out a lot and we are planning to go to a chalet for 2 nights ( wanted to book 3 nights but didnt have enough money) so yeah..its gonna be cool...we will just stay up and chat :) and play some video games...but i will be smsing as well XD oh and my sms bill exceeded by 1000 ..i am in dead shit for that:( well i didnt go to zaras party today,long story..some of them are staying over and they gave me a prank call(or something like that) -.- wonder if they are sleeping now..lols..i will try to post tomorrow and i will definitely post when i get back from my chalet so expect that (: and make sure you tag XD