Thursday, October 19, 2006
pretty late at night now,cant really get to sleep,really sad for some personal reason,everything in life's so messed,so many fucking problems...just hoping i can make things right this time..well enough about that..just came back from chalet yesterday and i slept till 12 noon today! cause at the chalet,we slept at 4 and woke up at 6 for 2 nights!at the chalet we had pretty much of fun,cause there was an arcade really near the chalet =] well yeah..and then this morning, i on-ed my phone and saw marcus asking me where i am now and then in my head i was like "omfg today is his birthday and i am supposed to go to plaza" totally forgot all bout it =/ then i went to plaza..reached there 5 minutes late(pretty early =] but i was still the latest to reach -.-) then we played some arcade(nobody wanted to challenge me initial d -.-) before watching death note which i have been looking forward to but omg the ending was totally crappy,but its still a good show overall...after that we went to another arcade at the mrt station and we just played there till 7.30 then i went home..and sorry to cus and the rest cause i didnt talk a lot or whatever cause i was damn tired and my mind was on something else =/ well i dont usually do this but i am just gonna write it out,and to those people who know me,IT DOES NOT REFER TO ANYBODY OK??well but some parts are really my feelings right now..
i am sorry;
for all the things i didnt do for you
i thank you;
for all the things you did for me
i dont want this to end yet
but i am not too sure about you
when you told me you like me
i was filled with joy
but i did not dare tell you
what you told me
because i thought we were pretty different
and that i wasnt good enough for you
i even made you angry
by neglecting you and things to make you hurt
but please believe me,i did not do it on purpose
i just got carried away
and after a while,
i realised you were slowly fading away from me
but you told me that you'd always stay by my side
i was really touched
i didnt expect you to love me this much
but yet i still couldnt tell you how much i like you
i started talking to a girl a lot lately
someone you really hate
you got real sad,
but you didnt tell me about it
slowly,you didnt seem to be interested in talking to me
i thought you had someone else already
so i asked you;
you said you still like me
but i didnt believe you
and i was pretty rude to you
after that,
you didnt reply me any more;
i didnt know whether you were sad or angry,
i didnt even know whether if you were even
speaking through your heart
but all i knew is that
i was really sad & angry at myself
for not telling you sooner;
i then
tried to contain my sadness & anger by punching those hard walls
till my hands bled
but it didnt work
and soon,we lost communication.
its been months now,
but i still regret what i didnt do
and your face still appears in my dreams on the nights
which i could fall asleep
and if i could meet you right now,
i just want to say 3 words,
"i love you".
i am sorry;
for all the things i didnt do for you
i thank you;
for all the things you did for me
i dont want this to end yet
but i am not too sure about you
when you told me you like me
i was filled with joy
but i did not dare tell you
what you told me
because i thought we were pretty different
and that i wasnt good enough for you
i even made you angry
by neglecting you and things to make you hurt
but please believe me,i did not do it on purpose
i just got carried away
and after a while,
i realised you were slowly fading away from me
but you told me that you'd always stay by my side
i was really touched
i didnt expect you to love me this much
but yet i still couldnt tell you how much i like you
i started talking to a girl a lot lately
someone you really hate
you got real sad,
but you didnt tell me about it
slowly,you didnt seem to be interested in talking to me
i thought you had someone else already
so i asked you;
you said you still like me
but i didnt believe you
and i was pretty rude to you
after that,
you didnt reply me any more;
i didnt know whether you were sad or angry,
i didnt even know whether if you were even
speaking through your heart
but all i knew is that
i was really sad & angry at myself
for not telling you sooner;
i then
tried to contain my sadness & anger by punching those hard walls
till my hands bled
but it didnt work
and soon,we lost communication.
its been months now,
but i still regret what i didnt do
and your face still appears in my dreams on the nights
which i could fall asleep
and if i could meet you right now,
i just want to say 3 words,
"i love you".